Unfairness

The world is just so unfair. There are people who are rich, smart, good looking and talented. While many have to worried about their survival everyday. I belong to the average class. However i always think why cant i belong to the group of people who owns everythings. I guess everyone will have something to complain about themselves but just how much they complain. The world is jus so unfair!


There is a serious need to post now, if not i will have to wait unit next weekend then i will have a chance to do so. Quite a number of things happend this week. I was posted to 42 SAR at sungei gedong which is very far from my place. To make it worst, i have to stay in. =( really dragged staying in. Havent got a chance to see my CSM and OC because my company is currently having block leave, so my QM also ask me to clear too. Really scared of making friends there. Especially when everybody there know each other except me.

Went shopping with mum today and brought quite a few stuff. So happy about it. I still got a very long list of things to buy. I will need quite 'a bit' of money to buy. Haha!

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42 SAR

WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!

Emotions

Suddenly feel so emotional again. I guess is because one of my buddy will be going overseas later. So many people leaving the country. My second brother will also be leaving soon. Also maybe because i am listening to lee hom new album. I personally feel that the album is quite good. A lot of emo songs. =) something that i will prefer more.

My journey in STC will finished soon, and i will soon be going to my unit. Really scared of going to the unit. I think is because i seriously do not know what is going to happen and i feel really insecure.

I want someone that will care for me. I want people to be as sensitive as me. But as i have say before. I shouldnt impose my values on others. There is so much to say. But i do not know how to put it in the correct way. The world just sucks! The darkness in people makes the world feels so cold and such a hard place to live in. I am really looking forward to the day, the day when everyone will care about each other deep inside their heart. Nobody how sad i am feeling, i will still put a smile on my face, cause i want people around me to be happy. =)

timbre!

We really had a very hard time finding that place. That place quite deserted and far away from SMU! But ed told me it is jus behin SMU. haha! We really hard a good time at timbre. The food there is really nice and the drinks there is also great! However, i think we shoudnt have ordered the martini side drinks. It is not as good! haha! I think we enjoyed our time there, except the two stupid guys. There just have to always show their coolness!

Future

Seriously, i am unsure of my future. I never seriously go think about it before. . Many people at least have a idea of what they want to do in the future, but I am so unsure of my future. At least now i still have time to think about it due to army. I have gotten a place in NUS faculty of engineering but that is not i seriously want. I jus apply that because i dont like to study, so no matter studying what will also make no difference. My brother tell me to try applying for accounting degree next year, because at least that will give me more future next time in the society. What i seriously have interest in is actually cooking. I actually hope to become a chef next time in my life. haha! So i am now planning of taking up cooking lessons with my friends or my brother girlfriend.

I am also very unsure about my love life. It is so difficult to maintain one especially....... shouldnt talk about it. =) At least what i am very sure of is that i have a very good family. They are the people that i can really trust. The next thing will be my group of friends. I am sure we will still be very good buddies in the future. No doubt of this!

I cried

It had been a long time since i last cried. I totally cant remember when is the last time i cried. I think it is because army is jus not exhausting and make u no time to cry. haha! i cried today while sending my brother off for his sail. It is 6 months i emphasize. It is not a short period at all. I do not know why. But i guess i have got really attached to my family these 2 years. I guess it is army that make u cherish your family more. At least army does has its good points sometimes.