Security

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Some time back when I was still in army and I was having dinner with Russell and the rest.

I asked Russell, "Eh, Why you can have meal and do things alone one ah?"

He replied, "Because I feel secure being alone, don't need others to prove my existance."


Can't remember what exactly he say, but it was along that line. I thought that answer was damn cool. I was thinking why can someone be so secure about himself? Even though he was quite a extremist in his own thinking, Haha!

Anyway, come to think of it, I had been someone who was very insecure about myself. Always thinking about what others think about me, what others say about me and etc. But I started to change as I aged, becoming to be able to be more secure about myself and not always thinking about what others people think about me. In another word, more matured in thinking.

But why would one be insecure about oneself? Not sure myself, but I think this kind of things is more of the emotional aspect. They tend to think more and wants everyone attention. They want to know everything under the tree, they feel insecure if others are talking about some stuff that he/she don't know. They just afraid to be alone. haha!

Sounds like me right? But that was in the past. I have more things to do rather than thinking about all these!

Han Quan